来不及说完的词......“我爱你”

今天是2月14号...情人节!!心里面想着今天妳一定会跟妳的男友度过一个既甜蜜又浪漫的一天。。
想到这里，心不竟心酸了起来，这大概是吃醋的感觉吧！！

很突然的，电话响了起来，看看是谁打来的，很慌张.......想不到竟然是你打来，本来是很开心的接你的电话，可是接了以后竟然听到了你哭泣的声音！！我还是照久的紧张着你，“一直问你发生什么事？怎么啦？别再哭了，到底怎样了？”这些台词我都忘了已经说过多少篇了.....因为我在你心中是你唯一你可以倾诉的对象.....可是你却从来不知道我的心里是多么的喜欢你，爱着你！你就只是单纯的当我是你的好友....

你在电话上哭了起来，我便听着电话便跑去海边了！！当我到达的时候，你用你那充满眼泪的眼睛望着我，那时候我也不懂该怎么办？只是等待你开口说话，因为心知到你现在非常伤心，非常痛苦，呆呆的我只是一直坐在你的身旁，让我的肩膀成为你眼泪掉落的地方!!

这时候你便开口说了一句话，就只有你懂我在哪里！那个丑王八蛋都没来找我....这时候我才懂原来你最需要的是你的男友--明杰！！我便问你：“到底发生什么事啦？”你对我说：“今天是情人节，我跟杰因为一些事情吵了起来，他就跟我提出分手了！！”说到这，你抱了过来，在我的肩膀上大哭，还一直说：“死明杰，丑明杰！！

可是你却不懂当你靠在我肩旁的那一刻，我是多么的心痛！！你靠在我的肩旁，但却想着另外一个男生！！我真的很想对你说：“无论多少个男生伤害你，放弃了你，我是那个一辈子也不会离你而去的那个！”可是我真的没那个勇气，因为我心知道你喜欢的不是我.....我不想连成为你倾诉对象的身份都失去......因为这样最少我还能待在你的身旁，一直默默的付出，默默的为你，即使我将会很辛苦，很痛苦，可是我不后悔！！

你抱着我的那一刻被明杰看到了，结果他气冲冲的跑了过来，便一拳的向我打来，我倒在地上看着他带你离开，你的眼神没有一刻是回来看着我的，你只是看着他，忙着和他解释这个误会！！

这时候，我才发现原来我在你心中的分量是那么少！！那种绝望真的好难受....原来那个伤口并不痛，痛的是我的心！！如果那时候你有回头看我一眼的话，我想我会很高兴！！可是你并没那么做..........

当天晚上，我在便利店前看到你和明杰吵架，他说要和你分手，只看到妳一直在哭泣的紧握着他，说妳不想，他便狠狠的甩掉你，那一刻，你被甩出了路中央！！
我即刻冲了出去抱着了你，心想着妳安全了！！可是另一个方向有辆车冲了过来....
这个时候我松开了我的手，把你推开了！！当我被撞倒的那一刻起，觉得自己真的很爱你哦！
原来我可以为了妳连性命都可以抛弃的.....有可能是即将离开这个世界了吧，我好想对妳说我一直闭在心里的话.....想着想着，我慢慢的晕了过去。。。。

当我醒来在医院的时候，原来我已经被宣告不治了！！这时候，我只看到妳一直在哭泣，问我为什么那么傻？我便回答说：“你不懂吗？我希望你能安全，我要一直的守着你！！”其实，那一刻她知到了我是多么的爱她......我便对她说，你能答应我一件事吗？我是个很自私的人，所以我希望你每天都可以想念我一次！！！可以吗？我只看到你一直点头.....最后我想对你说：“我.......爱....."

就这样，就断气了！！我的灵魂在想，好遗憾啊！！我始终没机会讲完那句话......!!!

对某些人来说，也许跟过不同的女性说过我爱你，可是某些人连这样的机会都没有！！
千万别在自己的生命中留下遗憾。。。
爱看起来好简单，简单的一句我爱你，或几万元的钻石项连，或不可衡量的付出.....都可以表现出你的爱意，每个人都有不同的表达方式........
请别怀疑我对你的爱，我没有勇气对你说我爱你，没钱给你个钻石项链，也没为你付出很多，
可是我的心里有的都只是你.....我会一直思念着你的!!!!

多亏KIMIRO啊！！！XD

哈哈~很荣幸的被美女点了名字~
可是之前懒惰。。。
现在才在自己的部落格写这个=P

=D：被点名字的人要在自己的部落格写下自己的答案，
然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，
仍然组成20个问题。
被点名者不得拒绝回答问题=,=

1.你的名字
谢迪伦/有人叫steve,有人叫7up

2.最近最郁闷的事？
学业和感情吧！

3.最受不了自己那个缺点？
太帅了。。XD

4.遇到喜欢的人，你是勇敢表白还是默默关注？
应该是默默关注吧。。看对象的

5.说出点你名的人的3个优点（不可删除题目）
有一副圆圆的脸，有一个响亮的声音，很疯狂（具备了好朋友的条件）

6.兴趣是？
对着电脑，看漫画，玩电脑。。yamcha..and many

7.你现在最想拥有什么？
希望全家人都平平安安，开开心心！也想要有钱啦，还有想要一段很pure的爱情

8.什么时候感觉最开心？
只要我没伤心和不爽时，我都很开心的。。

9.恋人/老公/老婆让你最欣赏的优点是什么？
以上的我都没有。。XD

10.觉得自己的性格是？
好色瓜（fatty每次都这样讲我的。。XD）
很好玩（还没定下心来，不够成熟）
还有很多，要相处才知道的。。。

11.现在最想做的事？
没什么想做的事。。

12.接下来最想去的旅行国家或城市？为什么？
很美的地方，不知道哪里哦。。

13.你为什么要回答这些问题？
多亏西米露咯。。。haha

14.你觉得点你的名的这个人是什么样的个性？
很难说啊。。还不错吧

15.什么时候觉得孤独？
没试过。。也许以后一个人出去闯的时候会感受到

16.最近一次掉眼泪是？
一年前

17.请列出喜欢的饮料？
7up,teh ais,milo ais..fruit juice

18.家人还是伴侣重要？
家人和伴侣都重要。。不想忽略任何一方

19.春夏秋冬喜欢那个？
冬天

20.你觉得自己五官哪一个最好看？
没有哦。。等人家讲我才知道的

Wedding Dinner

Yesterday 18 December 2009...i went for my cousin's wedding dinner...
Actually his wedding date is at 8 December 2009 at KL...BUT our relatives cant attend...
so one more dinner was organised on yesterday for our relatives...

The meal is not bad too...and my cousin (bridegroom) and his wife (bride) very match..
one handsome and one pretty...i think many ppl will admire them...haha...
So, i sure wish them have their great life lo....

And, my cousin too, Ferniean Loy (bridegroom brother) look very handsome at that night...so great lo...if let girl saw him...sure all want his hp number...XD....
So that's why i yesterday no online for whole day le...and when i drive back reach TI ...
It was late already...12.30 midnight already...So very tired becoz as u know drive for long journey is very exhausted de....

Thats all For the Wedding Dinner....

BB..."L"un Writed...

What is Happen to ME ?

Haiz...2day suddenly i feel tht many things need to worry in my life..
What the hell is happen to me ?? Is this the beginning of become a mature guy ??

Really no idea to how to solve all these "worries" ...what can i do ? why i start to worry so many things de ?? This give me benefits or jz make my emotions down only ...
Speechless About this...Haiz...jz let this worries hold on 1st...
Let me have a break 1st and make a good decission, hope the decission tht will never make me regret......

SO, this is my mood for 2day lo....hope all the things will become better la...

BB...."L"un Writed...

A Men In Pain

Watch le one drama..and feel it is very meaningful lo..The drama iis talking about being a man is a very difficult things especially for those who have their own family...

Haiz..After this, i only realize that being a husband or a father is being so difficult..
A man who is responsible to his family and all his children and wife, he try all his best to earn money for his family, it is a very hard things...especially nowadays girls is better than boy...
Girls can become superwoman and earn more money than boys...

Mayb This may lead problem to some boy due to some boys need to care their own pride...
mayb nowadays it is already become a normal problem and boys also can accept this already...
but i deeply believe a man is thinking their own pride is more important than their own life...
A man need to have their pride (也就是面子啦）,so that's why i am thinking less ppl will choosing a superwoman as their wife...

Mayb they will choose them as a gf,but ppl will never think i will marry with this gf from the beginning...maybe after a long time of interaction, they will do that...
It is some complicated point in this issue...
So, in conclusion, when a man don't have their own ability to take care of his family and cnt rear them, the man will start depress and thinking they are scrap...

So, they have alot of pressure and all u can seen that is drink wine and a lot of family problem wil l start to occur this time...They need the encouragement to let them stand up again, so as the wife and family play an important role in help him...So chinese got one phrase , 可以共富贵，但不可以共患难....it means when ur family jz can share ur wealth with u but cnt share ur sadness and problem with u...can u imagine how pain is this ?? so this is 2day topic i discover....

2nd things is i wish to buy a laptop in white colour de...but so far jz imagine only...
becoz dun have money , cnt always call sis buy things for me..she work at singapore also very suffer de...need to  take care himself and need to send money to my grandparents too....
So, it is a good sis, good daughter and even a good granddaughther ...proud becoz have this kind of sis...haha...

So thats all for 2day...

BB....."L"un Writed

This Holiday Is Boring....

It makes me feel bored in this holiday..nothing to do ...just keep online whole day and sometimes go help my mum work only...

Haha...Yesterday, I just watched the movie entitle "Death Note. L change the world.."
It is a very nice movie..and i like it very much although it is a kind of late to watch this movie...

"L"...become my idol already...haha...maybe the story inside is a bit of n0nsense..
but still like it very much..Einstein say before:"Imagination is very important. Imagination can change something impossible to possible."

Haha...Actually,How come "L" eat so many sugar de things and wont cause diabetes ?? and the way he type the keyboard is very funny and geng...i try to learn it also very suffer. haha...
But, althought not realistic, but still like the movie very much...haha...

The holiday boring ar...Haiz...School Wan reopen again...It is a bad news for me...the upper six life is going to start....It is very stressful de...dun knw me wil feel stressful or not leh...
becoz everytime i seeem like not care not care about all those things...
STPM is coming le...haiz..dun wan waste time again...but everytime open the book jiu sleep le...

BUt when open comic book jiu wont wo...haha...really is cham ar...I very less come write blog de...Hehe...so due to the boredom tht make me come write blog also good de...I also long time no come le...So hope call ppl enjoy this holiday and start work hard next year lo...

BB...."L"un writed..^^

Love Really Is Complicated !!!

爱很复杂吗？
有人说别把爱看的那么难，简单化的话幸福是很容易的！！
没错，当两情相悦的时候，也许会是很开心和很幸福的事吧！彼此在乎对方。。

但当你只是单方面的喜欢上了对方，也就是所谓的单恋。那该怎么办 ？
你去问朋友的时候，他们便会说去追吧，只要努力过就好，你怎么知道她不会爱上你呢？

你就在想，我暗恋她很久了。。该不该和她说呢？
我和她是很好的朋友了。。每天的有说有笑已经是我们的惯例！
我表白的话，若你不爱我，我们还能回复像以前那样吗？
就算真的能，尴尬还是会存在你我之间吧！

一开始，就只希望一直暗恋着你，看着你开心就好！
然后，就慢慢的想关心你，接着便想和她在一起。。
你很难容忍自己喜欢她的感觉，你无法压抑。

从一开始你希望她找到一个比你更好的男生，
直到你渐渐希望那个男生是你！！
你能忍受当她牵着另外一个男生的手，你却只能默默的爱着她，希望她开心吗？

你做得到吗？如果是很爱她的话，你是做不到的！

爱果然很复杂。。就好像我的一个朋友,his name is charless...
她爱上了一个女生，可是那女生却不喜欢他。。
她能怎么办？他便以直期待而已。。
直到那女生有男友了。。他便伤心了。。

一个男生伤心的时候是不会写在脸上，不像女生！
他们在朋友面前的时候是没什么东西。。
但当他独自一个人坐下来的时候。。他便会按着自己的胸口，他并不是在计算心跳了多少下，

而他是在计算他的心为了那女生痛了多少下？
haiz....So what is love ?? wht kind of love can you get ? how much you need to pay for love ?

money can't get the love..how much of tear you need to drop to receive one love ?